NBA players reading mean tweets - for your enjoyment
Humans tend to shy away from the hard situations of life . So … why is it I’m wired differently ? I always involve myself in the hardest possible situations . When it comes to jobs, ( I average between 60 & 70 hours a week ).. dating especially . At times, though, I do find myself questioning God on why He feels that the most difficult path is ALWAYS the one for me . I fully recognize that I will NEVER have it as bad as Job. Never . I’m always underestimated in the job setting .. which in essence is bittersweet .. but doors being slammed in my face over & over does affect me on occasion . Gender barriers . Age barriers . For what ? Last I checked , as long as you got sh*t done , you were the best fit for the job ! Why do people search for excuses ?
Dating .. lawd . I am currently in the hardest situation I think I may have ever been in . My 3 year relationship - 2 being long distant - has nothing on what I’ve experienced the past 6 months . The smitten stage was truly 1 that swept me off of my feet .. but the whole 6 months have been from a distance . I’m realizing as I get older , my needs have changed from that 3 year relationship & distance doesn’t seem to be something I can brave so easily anymore . Maybe it’s because life is showing on me from the past 3 years since I’ve been out of undergrad . I think …. we all long for companionship in some form & although it’s all cute-sies & kisses over the phone , a touch is something that simply cannot be imitated . Mind over matter . I repeat this often . Temporary sacrifice for long term happiness . I repeat this often .
But I’m back to the why . How dare I question God -ever- right ? There are plenty of things that make life tough sometimes . Why does that have to include dating as well ? I believe if it’s worth it , you have to work for it . But when do you say enough is enough & wave the white flag …… or do you ? Ever ?
So I continue . To fight the good fight . To remind myself that God awards the faithful . Tenfold . Not everyone is fashioned to be a solider . My journey continues to confirm that I am .
Thanks God . You’re dope .
Stay relevant in my life .